Pulling my walls down.

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Warning-Deep post ahead.New,unexplored area for me.

Hey guys!So,if you haven’t noticed yet,I haven’t posted for more than a week now.That’s because I had a couple of issues going on and basically,I didn’t have anything to write about.
In other words,writer’s block.

A big one.

And,I had a lot of projects and assignments to be completed.

So,my writer’s block made me think.

A lot.

I thought about a lot of stuff about which I could write but then I thought (basically I thought a lot,if you didn’t infer that by now) that it couldn’t be my niche.

Then I decided to write about my loneliness from school and college.

But then again,I realised that the link to my blog which was in my Instagram bio could be accessed by many “average minded” people(That’s putting it mildly)and they could judge me about it.Its not the judging that makes me feel weird,it’s that people who I thought could be my friends and for whom I pulled down my walls of fear,judge me.

Believe me,I have always been a victim of indirect bullying.

School was obviously hell,I didn’t expect college to backfire so much.

I thought,new place,new beginnings. 

But,boy,was I wrong.

College comprises of indirect,sweetly composed insults which could pierce deep.

You can call me sensitive and ask me to be open-minded.But believe me,I have tried.

I have tried and tried but failed horribly.

And for people who know me personally,please,do not sympathise with me because that’s not what I want from this post.

It’s for you to know what goes through my head when y’all comment on everything I do.

Really,studying is bad?

Really,if I’m a nerd,that isn’t good?

Basically,you don’t like me,say it.Don’t tag me along with pity and disgust.

I do pretty well on my own.

That’s how I spent my last 2 years of school.

That’s basically my version of a rant.

What’s yours?

P.S-I have never written such a raw,unedited article ever.

P.P.S-I am now officially published online and on real paper.Yay me!

P.P.P.S-I’m so sorry for the abrupt ending but if I could go on,it would take forever.So that’s all for now.

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6 thoughts on “Pulling my walls down.”

  1. Deepika

    Congratulations!! 🙂 🙂
    Agreed, Nobody wants pity. And if someone likes you, fine. And if they insult you, well then you do have certain hand gestures to show them!! 😀 :D. Wish you all the good luck! Be happy! Be you! 🙂 🙂

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  3. ThisDarlingAdventure

    Hi there 🙂 first off, thanks for sharing. It is so scary to be unedited and vulnerable, but really… I think a lot of people can relate. Going deep makes for better conversations and relationships in general. So thanks for being brave and just putting it all out on the table. It is rather refreshing.

    As for school, it is rough. I, myself, never really fit in from my early days of school. When college came around I still definitely did not have the whole friendship thing figured out. And I still don’t completely. But if there is anything I can encourage you about it is this: you are and that is enough. Keep writing and exploring your passions in life and then you will find others who are doing the same, maybe in their own way or maybe similar to you. There are good people in this world, sometimes it just takes a little bit to find them. But it is important to surround you with people who will speak life into you and who you can share joy with. Now I am out of school and married, but the lessons I learned back in school have stuck with me and have made me cherish the awesome friendships I have now even more. It is not at all easy. They are messy sometimes and difficult because people are imperfect. But keep with it. You got this! 🙂

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